I Run

The cravings have intensified over the past few days, 

so I have decided to go back to the beginning.

Today I awoke feeling, weak and tired.

I cried out to the Lord for help, 

totally dependent on Him to make me strong. 

As I looked to Him, I felt His strength rise within me. 

Starting from the beginning, 

I'll share some of my thoughts as I began this journey.

Day 3:

Lord, I awake this morning anxious and exhausted.  My heart is beating fast, I can't breathe.  I feel like I've awakened from a bad dream, sweating, fearful.   I've been running for so long.

When stress comes from the pressure of the job, I run...I quit.

When I'm overwhelmed in whatever ministry I am in, I run...I think someone else can do it better, and I walk away...I run...away from what made me feel insecure.  Insecurity led to jealousy and I ran. 

In my wanderings and running, I'm realizing that I ran away from these things,

but I didn't run to YOU.

Day 3:  When Sugar Wall Crumble

Sugar Fast by Wendy Speake

Sugar is a stronghold for many people.  Unfortunately, no sugar fix can fix you.  In fact, when you give sugar that job, you'll end up more broken than before because sugar weakens our physical bodies and clouds our minds.  If only you could break free from this sweet, strangling stronghold, but you feel powerless.  The walls are too thick and too wide, the habits are too ingrained, the enemy too big and too strong, and you are too addicted.  However, all throughout the Scriptures, God demonstrates that He has the power to open prison gates and set captives free.

Wendy continually speaks throughout her book about strongholds.  In history, strong, fortified walls were built to keep out the enemy.  For the children of Israel, the wall of the city of Jericho was keeping them from entering God's promised land.  For the walls to come down, God's people had to first shout in victory.  They had to "raise a hallelujah in the presence of their enemies." "In full obedience and faithful expectancy," they had to shout.

For years, I have cowered in fear.  When faced with a wall or a giant, I ran.  

Talk about running, this little fellow can run!

He started crawling and pulling up at 6 months

and walked before 8 months.

He's a teeny, little thing but he's fast and strong.  

I'm learning more than ever that "in our weakness, He is strong."

I didn't know what I was getting into when I began Sugar Fast.

I'm not sure how cleansing the body can cleanse the soul, 

but it does.  

Whatever is going on, I've invited Him into the empty places of my heart

and He is filling me!

From now on, I'm not running away, 

I am running to you, Lord.