Beginning Sugar-Fast

I can't believe it's been 8 months!

 I got lost in the land of the living.

I have a new job, actually two jobs, 

(I'll talk about later!)

one full-time, one part-time

as well as being on call to babysit.

I would say I am, have been, will be for awhile

 Beyond Busy!

There's too much to catch up on in one post

so look for many things to follow...

hopefully sooner than later. 

As you can see, the babies are growing up.

Today Mr. H and I took a much needed day for ourselves. 

In our almost 5 years in Nashville, 

we have been downtown to eat, two times. 

Today was one of them. 

We ate from the buffet at Puckett's 

which had an hour-wait. 

It was worth it

and yummy

and NO CARBS. 

My reason to start blogging again, 

is for accountability.

Right now, we are in-between churches or 

maybe I should say, 

In-between the in-between of life. 

I started keto-eating in January, 

after reaching a peak weight that I never want to see again!

I was carrying much more weight

than my body or heart could manage.

Playing with the grands felt like an all-day-work-out.

A week after I started this new-way-of -living lifestyle (not a diet!)

I was introduced to the book, 

The 40-day

Sugar Fast

Where Physical Detox Meets Spiritual Transformation.

A week into Keto, I felt depleted, depressed, anxious, fearful. 

I was trying to do it on my own, when I discovered the book.

The 5th day, I was hit hard!

I realized I couldn't do it alone.  

I spent the night in my bedroom with my ear pods in

and my praise music on!

I was depressed and oppressed!

I can not take credit for the writings in italics, 

nor can I take credit for the writings on my heart. 

The Holy Spirit had been tapping on my heart's door for several 

months about my need to take care of His temple,

and I ignored His promptings.  

I made myself vulnerable and posted a picture of myself on Facebook

and I began the journey. 

Wendy Speake writes, 

"My sugar tooth was dictating my thoughts and days.  On top of that, the constant neck pain and stomachaches plagued me.  I was gaining weight, my muscles and joints were always hurting, my sleep was fitful and my emotions were a wreck.  I was grumpy, tired, and impatient with my kids and my husband.  Sadly, sugar wasn't making me sweet.  I didn't need any more conviction, what I needed was transformation.  I needed more than another diet; I needed something deep within to change."

Wendy had me at all of the above. 

The question was asked,

"If you had to give up sugar-for the rest of your life-

would you do it?"

I knew the answer to that question, 

No, I couldn't!  Not without help!

Another question that I needed to answer, 

"What do you turn to instead of Him?"

Take an honest look at where you are and where God is in relation to you.  He is not a far-off God; He hasn't gone anywhere, but it's possible that you have.  It may be that instead of running to Him to fill you, you have been running to the pantry.  perhaps, instead of opening up your Bible, you've been opening up your smartphone and scrolling through social media.  It's not sugar, but it's another filler.

Okay, here is where I get real with you. 

Most of you know that I have a diagnosis of Bipolar Depression. 

I've been treated with medication for 10 years. 

That's all good and most of the time, I can keep the woman in the basement 

(the funny way I refer to the out-of-control me). 

I am treated for anxiety as well and medication has become a stronghold. 

I could feel the tears well up from within and spill out and down my cheeks.

In my spirit, I could hear the question, 

"What do you turn to instead of Me?

What do you turn to when you are anxious and afraid?"

I said in my spirit and aloud in a whisper, 

"medication."

I reasoned with the voices inside, 

"I'm not an addict.  I only take what I have been prescribed.  I don't abuse it!"

But I felt God say, "It's time to trust me."

I never gave God a chance to show me that I could trust Him 

to calm my fear and anxiety.  

I ran to the medicine cabinet instead. 

This is how my journey began. 

I've been sugar-free for 21 days, and 

I've been doing Sugar-Fast for 13 days. 

I'm down 13 pounds since Christmas and 8 pounds

since Sugar-Fast. 

No anxiety meds. 

The one pill that I said I could never do without!

(I'm not stupid. I know only if God heals me can I stop the meds that balance my brain. BD is no joke.  Yes, God can heal.  How he does it, is up to HIM.)

My memory is improving.

My head is clearing.

My goal is to be whole-

spiritually, emotionally, physically.

Losing weight is the added benefit.

I'm gonna take you through my days.  

I hope you'll journey along with me.

I need the accountability.